Anxiousness...

I have been keeping myself very busy while my husband of six months is away training for Afghanistan. This deployment really hasn't been the issue for me, but the thought of the first real deployment for six months or more is scaring me senseless. I feel that I have been more stressed out about Afghanistan than the fact that I know nobody out here in Jacksonville. I've only lived here since June and I started a fourty hour a week job just to keep busy. Now it consumes my entire week and I work in peoples homes as a CNA, so I have no co-workers. And I also go to college, but its all online, so no classmates as well. It's been tough being away from my family and all my friends back home, but when I get to see John every single day after work I found it worth it. When I'm alone though it's a different story. I am very shy, so whenever he introduces me to people out here I find it very difficult to relate or find a conversation. Its not that I don't want to get to know people it just takes me a very long time, therefore I am alone while he's gone on training ops and things of that sort. It's really hard on me. I guess it's my own fault, but I'll get over being shy one of these days. It has been over a month since I seen John so I am very anxious and excited to see him and get back in the swing of living with him, but Afghanistan is in the back of my mind, and it's really starting to bother me...