Before I get into everything that's happened in my life, I want to thank those that shared their experiences, words of encouragement, and introduced me to a slice of their lives. It was uplifting to see that there are other strong women out there that care enough to share with me how to push through the hard times, and that there is an end to the hardships of our husbands being deployed. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
Things have been slow around the home front here. I've been actively job searching, and networking to find a job that doesn't make me miserable... but fills up this last stretch of time before the hubby comes home!!! So far, just playing the waiting game, but HOPEFULLY I'll know in the next day or two if I get this job I REALLY REALLY want to do on Elmendorf! I've been praying constantly that this works out and that I get this new job. My life's been pretty much flying by, and I'm taking the good days with the bad. It's definitely nice seeing that the bad days are few and far between, and I'm having less and less bad days.
Over the last few weeks, I've had this feeling that I need to get on here and write.... I've been counting down the weeks, the days until my husband comes back home. I''ve been giving probably too much thought to the million different ways things are going to happen the second he walks off the plane... Can't even begin to figure out what I'm gonna wear... If I'm going to cry, scream, or be funny and play a bit of a joke on him when he's finally home! With all the thought of how the scenario will go when he walks off that plane and I can finally have him home with me every night, I can't help but think about one person that probably affected my life in the most significant way since I've been married, or since the first time I met my husband. I remember walking through the airport the day that Travis was leaving. We'd been standing in line waiting to go through security.... I was already about to burst into tears, making my strongest attempt to keep it together for as long as possible. The gentleman was checking our ID's to walk through security, and he thanked Travis for his service to our country. I can honestly say, that the next moments following this man handing my husbands ID and stuff back to him, was one of the most pivotal, life-changing moments of my life. My world was literally falling apart, being a newlywed (and I'm STILL a newlywed!) and dreading the fact that I was about to watch my husband leave me for months and months.... My heart was shattering in my chest with every step I continued towards the gate. As the gentleman was giving my ID back to me, he said " Ma'am, thank you for sticking by him, and for you sacrificing your time with your husband." Those words fell upon deaf ears that day....but they weren't forgotten. I had no idea at that point what those words had honestly meant... but I'm thankful every day that I am married to an airman.
I know that our husbands are looking to us, their wives to be there for them. To give them hope, love, and support. I also know that we are the rock that they look to while they're gone..I've had the unfortunate chance to hear about how even now.... there are wives that are home that are cheating on their husbands, or have started divorce paperwork, or have just plain up and left their husbands while they are over sacrificing the very things we hold dear to our hearts for every single persons freedom back here in the states. My heart goes out to the men/women overseas that don't have a choice but to press on and have to deal with wives (or girlfriends) that are doing that. It makes me sick to think that there are wives of our military acting this way. I honestly hope that I never meet these women. Those are the women that disgrace every other military wife out there! Shame on you! That's enough said on that subject though. I've got to stop thinking about those people that do that.
I can honestly say that I am so proud of my husband. Proud that he's done what was asked of him, proud that he's sacrificing everything to do what he feels he needs to do on his deployment. I'm proud of all the husbands out there....that leave their families to protect our freedoms here at home.... that keep us safe. I'm proud to be an air force wifey!!!! That's definitely a title that I can live with the rest of my life. I'm proud of all of us women staying home and managing the home front for while our better half is all across the world.
I really believe that the day at the airport was a message from God.... I really believe that he knew that one day I'd realize that there was more to the picture than me losing my loving husband for awhile. Every day I wake up and think about what he said to me that day... They truly were words of inspiration, and am truly thankful that God is still watching over my husband every day. I love you Travis.